I am not sure how, or when but your spark will return and when it does, it will feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders and a breath of fresh air has arrived in your lungs.
Johannesburg, South Africa (18 February 2021) – Honesty time… this is not going to be easy to read, but I think it’s so damn important.
I lost my spark! I lost that thing that used to set my soul on fire – it disappeared, and I haven’t seen it for weeks, actually months.
You see, I have continued to do my job despite the way I feel; I get up early to report on and write good news every day, I join the radio shows and reply to messages with as much kindness as I can muster up, but the weight of the world has seemed too heavy for me, for far too long.
It’s been 327 days of the lockdown in South Africa, and for 327 days I have received desperate requests from people on a daily basis who need food, shelter, support or just an ear to listen too. I try to help wherever I can – connecting the needy to the organisations and finding people who are able to help where I can’t… but the constant hardships and destitution beat me to a point where I lost my self.
Yeah, I have continued to do what I must, but it’s been rough getting up every single day and having to face life without that fire in me.
But that is not what this post is about… this post is good news… because it’s back!!!
Something has changed in me, and I am feeling so incredibly positive again. I wasn’t sure at first, but for the past month or so, I have felt the fire in my belly again. I am waking up earlier with the oompf to fulfil my purpose. I write with passion, help where I can and fit more into my day that I am able to process when I get into bed absolutely exhausted at night.
The thing that sets my soul on fire is back.
Why am I telling you this?
Because I know loads of you have lost your spark too and I just want you to know that you will get it back. This sadness and anger seem to creep into our souls. This thing we are all going through impacts us on such a deeper level that it can be really tough to process the pain and trauma. Many of us are just drifting through this, trying to get through this but I am here to tell you that even if you’re feeling a little lost right now, that feeling is not forever.
I am not sure how, or when but your spark will return and when it does, it will feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders and a breath of fresh air has arrived in your lungs.
So please hold on, that thing that sets your soul on fire will return.
Sending you love and kindness. Wishing you only good things.
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